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  Just my random thoughts.I will be posting my thoughts and ideas about all kinds of things. I have been on here before and enjoyed the freedom of this site for a blog and decided to do it again. Thanks for reading. Understand that some of my writings are things I have written as a way to release my emotions and keep them from eating me up on the inside.
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Saturday, December 10, 2011
OK gang this is going to be an ugly one and I am saying sorry for it right up front.
Thursday was one hell of a bad day it started out with me attempting to get out of bed and my back was locked up so bad I could hardly move and I almost had to call my care giver to come and help me out of bed. Then I was emotional all day long bouncing from sadness to anger to loneliness to a bunch of other lovely emotions. Well then I go and get the mail and I see a letter from the state, not a huge deal I get those from time to time in reference to my assistance what little I do get. Well I open it up and what I read both freaks me out and sends me into a panic attack and a rage outburst at the same time! I am so shaken by what I read that in an attempt to get back to my apartment as fast as I can, I end up cutting the corner to fast in my power chair and slam into the wall and the drain pipe. I should explain I am in a power chair now due to the fact that I lost my left foot so I now have a double prosthesis and the doctor told me with my massive balance issues I will most likely not be able to walk safely outside my home any more. I come into my apartment and I am totally freaking out I show the letter to my care giver and she is like what the hell!!!!!!! The state is changing some of my coverage and they are stating it is due to the fact I did not send them documentation for certain things from August till now. I know you are thinking that it is my fault well this is where the shit storm begins. When I was put on the assistance program I am on, I sent in all the documents they requested from me on a monthly basis, the first month I sent them a massive stack of papers that they wanted. Well I waited a week and called my case worker to verify they got them. She proceeded to tell me "Yes we got them, but you don't need to do that because there is no need." I was confused and I of course asked why. She then told me "you have so many expenses each month that on your current income you have no costs on your end and this program will take care of all of that." I asked her several time in the process of that conversation to make sure I was understanding her and my now ex-girlfriend was there about 5 feet away when I had that conversation and verified what I had said because I asked her about it recently. So I then contact the state, my new case worker says because I didn't send in the information they wanted that was why my aid was changing. I then hung up the phone, called back into the system and got a hold of the original case worker that had told me the information. She of course tells me that she looked up my case notes and she didn't show any notes of that conversation and that because I didn't send in the information that she had told me I didn't need to send in that was the reason for the change. And of course I had a complete melt down.  I lost it completely!!!!! It is not like I have not been through enough hell this past year and then to have this person tell me that because she didn't make note of what she told me when I was first put on this program I was going to be the one who suffers. I honestly think I now know what it is like to have a complete psychotic break because the way I felt when that happened was the most horrific feeling I have ever had. And to be completely honest right now I feel about as useless as a burned up piece of paper. So fragile that you can't touch it or it will crumble and blow away, you still see what was written on it but it serves no purpose any more.Again I am not looking for pity, and any of you that have read my blog in the past before I took my absence from here, my posts are more of a method of therapy for me then anything. So if you made it this fare thank you for taking the time to read this. I just needed to put this out there as a way of trying to deal with it. Hugs to those who want them or need them.   Raevun Thank you to you all.
Tuesday, December 6, 2011
I want to take a minute to say thank you to all those who posted comments or sent me messages in response to my post yesterday.
It really help me to clear some doubts out of my head. Now let me respond to a common theme in the messages I got. I am not angry at the loss of my leg. I know you may not think that from my post but that is not the case. The doctors I worked with during the time I was trying to save my foot were wonderful. My primary care did wound care on my foot SEVEN DAYS A WEEK!!! Yes you read that correctly, she would come in and open her clinic on the weekends to deal with my foot. I fought very hard to save my foot, with my day starting at 8am and I would not get back home in some cases until 6pm during the week. I did the wound care, Hyperberic treatments, and had to under go, 6 blood transfusions in a 2 and half month time frame. I would literally walk in there white as a sheet and my blood pressure was scary how low it was because I had lost so much blood. All that was to save my foot. I was like a machine during that time, I would sit and watch my doc carving on my foot and I had no reaction to it at all. I fought like a rabid animal to save my foot and finally my doc sent me to a surgeon to see what could be done and I decided after talking to the surgeon to go ahead with the amputation. I wanted to get on with my life instead of spending my days going to doctors and not doing the things I wanted to do to a degree. So please understand, I am not angry, I am just dealing with an emotional roller coaster right now and I think part of it is the holidays, they always get to me, and the stress of finances this month. I had some unexpected expenses this month I had not planned for. On the positive side I do have a new buddy that goes with me everywhere. His name is Jackson and he was rescued from a Breeders Farm. So for the first 2 years of his life he was used strictly to make money. He was not socialized at all so he has some personality issues but he is great and I love him very much. He really helps me when I am having a hard time and just know that he is there with me helps a lot. So I am hoping I can make it through the month and start the new year with things getting better and better. I am going to try to attach a pic of him so you all can see him. He is a Toy Fox Terrier and is fully grown and he only weighs 7.6 pounds. lol I keep him with me in his chest carrier and he loves to be with me all the time. If I put him down he just wants to come right back up. lol  Thank you again everyone. You all have helped me more then you may realize. As always hugs to those who want or need them. Raevun Need some honest opinoins gang.
Monday, December 5, 2011
OK gang,
In the past I have needed to get the outside view of people and this site was wonderful for that. So here I go again. If you read my return post from yesterday, you all know I have been through hell the past year or so. Well I seemed to have survived it pretty well, but my relationship crumbled and that seemed to be the crack in the dam and I have had a rough time of it lately. My doctor tells me that it is due to the fact that I am still dealing with the fact I don't have legs any more and I agree. I had a massive emotional melt down in the hospital and they had to dope me up because of it. And now it seems I am dealing with more of the emotions I had bottled up inside that had not come out. So here is what I will say is bluntly fucking with my mind now and this is where I really need some good honest responses. I don't care if they are brutally honest.. I want the straight up truth from those of you who are willing to comment after this post. And don't worry about making me feel bad. I want to know. Let me say this here and now, I guess I am more interested in the ladies answers but men can chime in too. If you were to see an ad posted from someone who said that they had lost both legs, in a wheelchair, and had other medical problems that they were dealing with, but there were other aspects about them that did catch your eye, would you respond to there ad or would you be likely to shy away from that person in regards to a relationship. Now I know many of you are going to say that there is a lot of things that go into being interested in someone, but what I am saying is this. If you saw that information first and not much else about them, would that stop you. I will be completely honest and tell everyone, I am in a place right now where I am doubting myself a lot and I am fight to get through this but this question is plaguing my mind and I need to get some input from an outside source. And Shanni I know you are going to read this and have something kind and a bit off the wall but, give it to me straight. lol Thanks for reading this and as always. Hugs to all those that want or need them. Raevun Been gone for a long while but back again.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
I have been away from the site for sometime. My life has been really insane for a while and now I am back again to post my random and sometimes odd thoughts.
The past year and a bit more has been one hell of a bad ride. Due to my doctors lack of concern, my blood pressure shot through the rough and it ended up in the hospital, then while trying to get that under control I suffered massive stomach problems due to the medication that my dumb ass doctor gave me and ended up in the ER, because there was a question as to whether it was my stomach or my heart, after a slew of tests, it turned out to be my stomach. Then after getting that under control, I was fitted for new Diabetic shoes that were not fitted correctly and ended up with massive damage to my left foot! Resulting in me fighting for 2 and half months to save my foot. We are talking seeing my new doc. everyday (meaning 7 days a week!) for wound care and debreedment (sp?). I had to under go 6 blood transfusions in less then 2 months due to blood loss, and still ended up loosing the battle. I ended up having my left foot amputated below the knee, so I am now a bi-lateral amputee, meaning I have no feet. I am recovering from that and trying to get on with my life from there but it has not been easy. Like that isn't bad enough, the stress from fighting to save my foot really left me wiped out and then my girlfriend and I broke up to boot. I sometimes think that when the bad things start coming sometimes they just don't want to stop. Sorry if this sounds like a pitty me Post but that is not the case. Just wanted to share what has transpired in my life since I was last on here and I will say for sure I do miss being here so I am finally able to get back on and try to have some fun and maybe even make some new friends along the way. Hugs to those who want them. Raevun Punching out the Doctor, So tempting!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Ok gang,
It has been a while since I posted on my blog for many reasons and it has nothing to do with a loss of interest in this site. I have been keeping myself busy to try to avoid going nuts but I decided to post something today that is on my mind and I am sure there may be many of you that will have the same feelings once you read this. So many of you know I have some medical problems and been dealing with those as best I can. Sure I know there are a lot of things I can do to better my situation, and I am working on that, but how many of you have been following doctors orders and then discover that in fact doctors orders could potentially be just adding to your problems?!??!?!?!?!? Now I don't know about most people in this world but for me, when a doctor gives me a script for meds, I always ask what kind of side effects there could be. The reason for this is the simple fact that If there is say 10 potential side effect from that med, I am likely to suffer from 5 of them. I know that sounds extreme, but you get my point. I have always had issues with side effect of meds for a long time and I hate it. Well because of certain things that seemed to be getting worse, I decided to do a bit of internet hunting for info. I found a simple site that you can punch in a med name and it will give you the description of what the med is for and then a list of both major and minor side effects to that med. By the time I was done, I was ready to walk to my doctors office barge into his office and kick his brainy short ass into the next fucking month!!!!!!!! Come to find out 4 of the 6 meds I am supposed to be taking, cause the same side effect, which has been plaguing me for a while now!!!!!!! 3 of the 6 cause another side effect and so on!!! I found that each of my meds could easily be contributing to some of the problems I have had before I even started taking the meds and is most likely increasing the problems for me just because of the side effects they have!!!!!!!!!!! Now you do the math, if 4 meds are listed at have a mild side effect by themselves, times the chances of that side effect hitting you and that pretty much means you are most likely going to have the problem. Granted, I know the doc is giving me the meds to help with certain things, but if you are say trying to lower a persons blood pressure, don't you think it would be a bad idea to give that person 4 meds that can cause a side effect that would cause them so much stress that there blood pressure ends up going even higher!?!?!?!? So I have decided to stop the meds that are causing these side effects temporarily to test my theory that the meds are in fact causing the side effect and that way when I seem my doc again, I can tell him straight up what is in fact happening. I am also researching more natural methods to help with some of my health issues, because I am really getting tired of taking a pill for one problem, but the pills are just making other things worse for me. I know a lot of you are going to say that is not a good idea, but I am really starting to loose a lot of faith in the current medical practice of just throwing a pill at a problem, with out consideration of the other problems it may cause. I will say this though. I intend to have a very detailed chat with my doc on my next apt. and tell him he had better do some serious reviewing of meds to help with this nightmare or things will get very ugly very fast. Because I have a total of 3 spare legs and I will take great pleasure in planting all 3 of them in his ass if he can't help me fix this issue that he placed me in in the first place!!!!!!! Sorry for the harsh tone in this post, but I am just very frustrated with my doctor and the realization, that a large amount of the stress I have had in my life over the past 2 years was in fact due to his just throwing a pill at the problem and not taking into consideration the effect of the pills he was through at me.   Another Ebayer! Woo hoo! Yes, I have my standard blurb spelling out my TOS saved in my documents. So it would make sense to do the same for emails received here.
Thank you for your comment. I'm glad it made you laugh, that was the intent. Added: Tuesday, December 6, 2011 5:40pm
 Hun I like your blog and I must say I have known about IE for years I don't even use windows I use a MAC and FireFox/yahoo or Safari for my travels on the net. Kisses. Charlene
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 KinkySeeker,
Thank you for your kind comment. It is deeply appreciated. -ecf Added: Friday, December 18, 2009 7:37am
 How's the leg doing darlin'? Have they even discussed using an Unna boot on you at all? Ask them! Since I have not actually seen your leg/infection(in real life or a photo-which photos do no justice!), I really can't judge what exactly would be the best course of action for you to take in regards to wound management.
Just trying to give a lil free advice, with what lil I actually know of your predicament. Hang in there and the prayers are still being sent dear  Added: Sunday, August 30, 2009 5:52pm
 Hi there Kinky. Added: Wednesday, May 6, 2009 4:43pm
Wicked photos.
I'll have to try it somtime thanks Added: Sunday, March 22, 2009 5:31pm
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