well, I've done it again. I went out at new year, and for the first time my daughter was old enough to join us. All was going well until the clock struck 12 and the kissing and cuddling started.
An family friend, a man literally old enough to be my dad, came over and kissed me, and I don't mean a peck on the cheek!
He's one of those harmless types, a bit of a ladies man in his youth, and still likes the attention.
He wished me happy new year as he let me go and I looked round to see my daughter looking horrified - she's still going on about it 2 days later

Well hello again everyone, and thanks for all your kind comments on my last entry. nothing has happened since, well unless you count the very naughty texts LOL.
I suppose I still feel a little uncomfortable with the age difference, and is it just me, but younger men don't have that authority, that self assuredness that older men have - and that I need. I'll keep my options open on that one.

On a more serious, and possibly boring note, I've had a bit of a revelation today. You know how hectic everything gets at this time of the year, and because I'm not really getting involved as I usually do, it's lead to all sorts of questions.
When the kids left home I decided that there was no need to go mad for xmas, and to be honest my ideal xmas would be spent somewhere else, just relaxing.
"but you can't do that!" Everyone said, and proceeded to organise my xmas for me.
The only thing I've got away with is refusing to send cards and putting the tree up much later than normal.
But I got to thinking today, noticed that if I don't fall in with everyone elses plans they get upset, because I've always gone along with things for a quiet life.
So, deep breath, from now on I'm not going to do that. I'm going to do what I want to do.
I know it's not going to be easy, a bit like the diet and fitness prog I started a while back and actually put weight on LOL.
but I have to give it a shot for my own sanity.

I think I mentioned some outrageous flirting in one of my earlier posts - with a much younger man and that it broke every rule I'd ever made to myself. Well (deep breath) it went much further than flirting last week.
No, we didn't have sex, just both admitted that we wanted to, and things got a little 'touchy'
Yes, it has put a smile on my face, and a definate swagger in my walk, but I think it will stop there. May be that will be enough to dissolve the sexual tension that has been building up between us for the past few months, who knows?

The last time I posted on here I said  I was going to bed with a book and hopefully having a good sleep. That was almost a month ago.
No I haven't been asleep all that time, just well, life sort of smacked me  in the teeth. My own fault, I was warned by a good friend about things that were going on around me, that I would be ill if I carried on the way I was. Next time he tells me that I will listen, honestly!
Today is the first day for a long time that I've felt like myself agan - let's hope it continues.

Just a quick note to let you all know I'm still here
It's been a long and very tiring week, so I'm off for a bath then curling up with a book and going to sleep.
Normal service will be resumed shortly x