So I began seeing this doctor about 4 months ago and he orders a whole bunch of blood testes and actually finds out I am a insulin resistant diabetic or type 2 so he gave some pills, well dam I don't know if it the fact I changed the way I eat or the pills that make me run to the bathroom all the time but in the last month with no exercise I have gone from 256 pounds down to 240 pounds. YAY me.

  Ok so the company that I normally work for does not let husbands and wives normally stay at the same base station, nor work on the same ambulance. Which I have no issues with at all. Well just now I found out for some reason unknowing to me they are putting my husband out at the same base as me and oh yeah he is my partner too. What in the hell is going on? I only ask this because even though we both love each other we so do not work well togeather, for the most part it is hidden out of view but just about always an arguement will happen sometime, then it gets left at work and we are like two diffrent people when we punch out and head home. Well here is to hoping for an arguement free night and that people don't nedd to call me out, as they are happy and healthly.

Today is a bitter sweet day for me. Today, 11 years ago I was lying in bed at 9:00 and my husband said he loved me for the first time. Just a few minutes later we got a phone call from his mother telling us the tradgey we now remember. I will never forget the feelings of that day, horror, shock, and the feelings of love that came to me from people on the street while I was in an EMS uniform. The next few days confirmed the wrost for everyone and finding out that I lost 343 extend family members was the worst. I am grateful to have been a part of this family for the last 11 years and as I do every year on this I will honor my fallen brothers by continuing their way of life and being there when the call goes. To anyone in the Armed forces I say thank you and to the countless lives lost in the wars that followed, you will always be remembered in my heart and I say thank you for allowing me to do what I get to do everyday, live in a free country where I can simply live.

Well today marks a milestone for me still holding the weight loss at f ive pounds because some stuff happened that I needed to get use to before I put a workout routine on top of it. But today I excerised for a full 37 minutes on the treadmill at the gym and 15 of those minutes were on a speed of 3.0 which is awesome for me being I could not even do one minute at that speed 2 years ago when I left rehab for a torn ACL in my right knee.