Well since my first blog which was my introduction things have gone from bad almost to the point of me giving up on everything life included to what I have now.

Lets start witht he whole snowball effect thing, the holidays they sucked one I couldnt be competely me and Christmas OMG alone again while the rest of the "family" was together having a good time. Wouldnt have been able to be myself anyways. Then a car accident nope I didnt get hurt but I my car got totaled while parked, took over a month for the other insurance company to replace my car. My job faultered due to me still having to hide at work I was almost ready to quit, and to top it all off my roommate decided she was going be the biggest bitch about everything that was going on, tried to kick me out on a freaking cold night with no where to go and about 5 bucks to my name. So yeah about 2 1/2 months ago I was ready to throw in the towel.

Now on to the brighter side of everything. Most important is that I met someone here on SA. We started just by talking and then it went to like and now love. After the month went by without a car and being at the mercy of my roommate, the insurance came through and I was able to replace my car, got a better one for the same money, I made head way in therapy and got my oh so important letter stating that I would be starting my real life test, name change and so on. So I came out at work (diesel tech) yeah they were shocked to say the least, but it went over so I got to switch to fulltime. My someone special an I have planned and I am going to excute even if it kills me meeting face to face and going from
there. I love her so much that it hurts when we have to hang up the phone, or say goodbye in an IM. With everything positive going in my life right now it makes all the bad stuff that happened scary as hell. I would have never known this woman that I love, i would have never seen what my car would be, and of course I would have never seen the shock, awe and WTF looks from my coworkers.

So yeah all the bad stuff that is scary to think about, even scarier that my life would have stopped short of being in the place I am now, not that this is home, this is a temporary place for me to exsist, I am going to meet this wonderful, bright, loving, caring, considerate woman that I have fallen in Love with and it doesnt feel like that is all I am doing. It feels like I am going home, where I belong. Its somewhere south of here, where the sun is brighter, even on the coldest day it will be warmer, and where I can breathe. Where I should never have left. Thats where I belong.

Well hey,

First off thanks for taking the time to read about me. I guess for me someone who reads a bit more than on the surface is looking for more then a hot time in the sack. lol

So yes I am a transsexual, not a CD/TV, but a true transsexual. If you wanna know why all I can tell you is its something that I have been hiding most of my life and decided that I couldn't do that anymore. My plans for the future involve going through HRT and although I live part-time as a man yet. That is only because of work. The rest of my life is lived as a woman. Once HRT starts to work more then I will be full-time. Hey it takes a while.

What am I wanting out of life is to be able to live, love and be happy. I have already gotten 2 of those done. the love part I am working on. I am not looking for a quick jump in but for something that become long term and stable.

Strange thing that since starting on my transition I have yet to really start meeting people. To busy I guess, yes this takes alot of time. It is an investment in yourself to be happy and live a healthy life not hide or lie. What else can say but that.

The problem is that society still has a problem with accepting that God, mother nature or just the whole development of a human being is not like any other creature. So I have halfway given up on society, there are to many rules that nature has that doesn't fit in modern society but from what I have started to see that some in our world are starting to catch up. Some and they are very far an few in between.

I guess if you want to know more about me start asking, I have lots of stories and there have been things in life I have enjoyed. All of them though up to the last 4 months were always when I was a gurl.